Cut.

Thats it guys I'm just going to cut the tripe and tell it like it is right now. My life sucks. Mom hates me, Dad doesn't care, the kids don't need me, and Laura and Emily have tennis. Seths busy, he doesn't care, my friends all suck (Lincolns a jock, Chelseas a ditz, Joes a dick, Nick is too shy, Nichole and Jenna have lost it, and Andreia is an idiot. Broke is undersexed. Thats all there is to it. Abby, Brittany, and Katelyn all SUCK. Tiff and everybody else are just retarded and don't give a shit about me. Drews cool, but yet again too shy.) Enough with friends though. Screw them. Seriously, my family hates me. I suck, peiod. I'm an awful, bitchy, mean, ugly, worthless, STUPID, wtreched girl. No wonder they hate me, I'm a bitch! I'm sick of beads, I am so so so so sick of beads. I hate money, I hate math. I hate this house. I hate having to clean it all the time and never getting anywhere with it. I practically broke my finger today, and its all sore now just because of my own stupidity! I hate fighting, but most of all I hate fighting with Laura. She is IMPOSSIBLE. Shes completely insane, and Emily's lost it too! Or maybe I've just lost it. I don't know, but I can't get along with them. Them, or Mom. Mom always acts like she cares when we're out in public, but then at home I'm just her 'buisness' partner if that makes any sense. She always wants my 'advice' or my 'opnion' or my 'help', but for cripes sake. Today she even yelled at me and told me to start acting like an adult. So of course I was SO mature and andswerd her with a "But I'm not an adult!!!" Man, gah. I'm trying to stop cursing so much but if I wasn't oy vey. I just don't know whats going on. My life is falling apart. Oh, and Seths had two car accidents in the last 24 hours. And I got yelled at for driving too fast the other night because all the kids ratted on me even though this jerkoff in a truck was riding me with his BRIGHTS on and I couldn't bloody see, so I got away from him. But you know, I'M the one with the problem, as far as Studer drivers go. Oh and for heavens sake, I know SO many wonderful people who all live SO far away. I almost wish I didn't know them, because it hurts so bad that I can't just be in the same room with them for even ten minutes.

I have to go place some orders now, great.

Dear God,

I still love you.