Eh?

I’m feeling random today, you’ll have to forgive me.

Pearl Jam. I love you. I can’t believe how much I love you. I can’t believe its taken me so long to fall in love with you. Yield and VS. will forever be a couple of my favorite albums.

I get my wisdom teeth taken out on Jan. 4^th. I’m scared as hell.

I finished Anna Kareninna a few days ago, and I simply didn’t know what to do with myself. I just sat there for a second holding my bookmark, and wondering what I’d do when I wanted to dip into that world for a few minutes, but couldn’t. Finally I closed the cover and put the book down. This book has changed my life, and I don’t say that lightly. I’ve learned so many things about life, people, beauty, and how I feel about God…its just amazing.

I just can’t express how great it is. I can’t wait to start ‘War and Peace’. God bless you Tolstoy.

I’ve felt prude as of late. I don’t know why really. Possibly because I watched television a bit over Christmas because I was sick, and I was once again…blown away by how bad our culture has gotten. Yes, its just television, it doesn’t represent our entire society, but so much of our media is viewed as the ‘ideal’, and this ideal makes me want to vomit. This is what happens when you don't have time for TV for months, you get shocked. And maybe I’ve just been replaying conversations with friends over and over again in my mind, and the content also disappoints me. I don’t know. I just feel prude.

I have the opportunity to go to a formal and then stay out all night with friends and get drinks on New Years eve, but I’m not going to. Why? Because I just don’t want to.

My room is coming together décor wise, I’m loving it.

Mom and I are going to go through my school work tomorrow, and very seriously look at it and figure out how much I need to do before the spring is over. We’ll also decide on what the subject of my ‘Senior Honors Project’ will be. Seth did film, and I’m thinking about doing “Bead History’ or some such nonsense. If I choose that it won’t require a lot of learning, just the processing of information I already know. I’m sort of dreading it, but it needs to be done and I need to get myself back into high gear.

I feel pretty ugly right now, and once again I don’t know why. I hate looking in the mirror, so I just put my hair up quickly and do without makeup. Its probably the worst thing to do when feeling so ugly, but eh. Not like I ever feel like a knock out but this whole thinking ‘Holy shit you have no hope.’ Every time I look at myself thing is getting old. HA.

Oh, and men I would marry in a heartbeat are: Jack Black, Christopher Walken, John Cleese, Billy Joe Amrstrong, Willam DeFoe, Al Pacino if he were younger, Tommy Lee Jones, that guy who plays 'Mr. Knightly' in 'Emma', maybe Dave Matthews, and Eddie from Pearl Jam. Oh and maybe Vince Vaugn (sp?), not sure on that one though.

So yeah, weird stuff lately, but that’s okay. Oh, and I have to change my template. After a while my old one starts to itch my brain. Or something like that.

*SNAP*