Watch out.

Death is listening.

And it will take the first man.

Who screams.

Whoa....

Geez guys, sorry about all the typos last night, geez. PROOF READ Camille, don't just write and post while your eyes are hazy and your mind is a mess.

I have to do a Spanish project this morning and our printer is being a bitch and I still don't know if my translations are correct! HA!!!

Class is in three hours. Mom is freaking out about vacation already. Paul and Ringo are the only living Beatles.

I like Paul better, but I'm rooting for Ringo. That would be so awesome if he was the last bug standing.

And tonight...

Well, I went to youth for the first time in three months. Everybody who I hadn't seen over break, totally freaked out. I have to admit, when I first walked in the door, and saw everybody, and Emily saw me and gasped, and all the hugs...but then, I saw Katie. Oh man, she totally flipped, and when I hugged her both of us were shaking. I didn't realize how much...I missed all of them. Life has been so crazy...they just haven't been in my mind. But seeing them tonight, wow, it was so great.

Church was good, not fantastic...but it was nice. I took it easy, thought some things over....worked some things out...things I've been thinking about a lot as of late. I'm not going to say I'm totally at peace with them, but I feel better.

It was good, we had pizza afterwards...I sat with Katie, Mel, and Audry...eating pizza...with random people coming up asking where I'd been. The guys all said the same thing "So who is he? You've been gone for three months Camille, that spells 'Boyfriend'." I'm like "Heh....no....". Even the infamous 'Joe' came up and shook my hand. Oh my! He touched heathen Camille! He better watch out...I've got a one way ticket to hell, and he could be guilty be association! Watch out Joe, Camille listens to 'bad music'!!!

Bitter? Who me?

Oh, my, gosh...another drama...Aaron, stalker Aaron, from the pool...from Vinton...was there. Wow, wha??? Thats all I'm asking God, wha??? He came up to me, and mentioned that I don't talk to him anymore. I pretended not to remember him...and so he reminded me...and then I pretended to be confused...lol...I hadn't seen him, even though I never forgot, and then I lied and said I hadn't seen him forever. And he said that he sat next to me at a movie last week. Um...oops...so yeah...heh. It was good and awkward.

Luckily...Lincoln, Mel, Peter, and Audry saved me, and we spent a good four hours at a coffee shop drinking way too much caffine, and playing stupid games. Then we drove around in my car for a while, because Linc had some new music he wanted to share, the little bastard with his new ipod photo. 40 gigs! Uggg. I finally kicked them out of the car...and got home just a bit ago.

The folks are asleep...I hope all will be well in the morning...heh...

I have a life, really! I just don't have time to write about it.

Okay I'll stop lying.

Lets see, happens as of Wednesday…

Thursday- I don’t remember much, I worked, took the kids to CR, and watched ‘Mystic River’ at night with Seth. The movie was in a word-INTENSE.

Friday- The boys had a gymnastics meet in Iowa City in the evening. Nile was a little shaky, and did most of his routines too fast…so he didn’t place. Erik did well, and placed three times. However, Nile had double the number of kids competing in his age group, poor little guy.

Saturday – That was yesterday. Nothing spectacular, basic Saturday crap. Eh.

Today – Well, so far we’ve managed to sleep in, as so we missed church, and about 40% of the family is dressed. I’d say 80 percent have eaten breakfast and read the paper or watched Spongebob. I think I’ll try and go down to Youth service tonight. I have motivation…Fellers are coming in for supper.

Muhahhuwhauhwuha.

Drink lots of H2O

Happenings.

-Work.
-Home.
-Dance.
-Working out.
-Cleaning up self.

I can’t wait until tomorrow is over, I have Friday off.

Oh, out of the four numbers for the spring show, we have two finished, one almost done, and one hasn’t even been started. Ai yi yi! And I’m going to miss at least three practices in March…and I’m almost certain that’s when Joan will start our lyrical number…stress! Okay cool, be calm. Breathe. Coolness. Welcome to Coolsville. Our ‘costumes’ should be here by next week. The gaudy things. Vomit.

Lisa is still being a psycho bitch.

Latest...

Happenings.

-Jeff Peterson resigned from Edward Jones yesterday. I have to admit, I was so relieved when I heard the news. I never liked the idea of Jeff being in Dad’s office, and Jeff was starting to REALLY hate the job. So, when his old employers offered him another job, he took it. He’ll be working salary again, and he most likely won’t be able to go as far as he could have with Jones, but it will be better for him.

-Along with that, Lisa, Dad’s fulltime B.O.A started wigging out again. She’s not happy about Dad looking for more help, but she gripes about all the work she has! She’s insane! And Dad is her EMPLOYER! She has no right to do this to him.

Uggg! My poor father. He’s had so many problems with staffing, and he put SO much work into getting Jeff going…its just sickening. Dad will get all of the accounts he gave Jeff back, and most of the accounts Jeff acquired himself, but that doesn’t justify all the stress it caused. And Lisa is a complete psycho bitch. And I have to go work with her AGAIN tomorrow. Dear sweet Lord, please, please help my father find half way decent office help. That is all I ask. Now back to business.

-I was looking for some earrings the other day, and I thought they might have fallen behind the bookshelf that is next to my bed, because I am so prone to putting them there late at night. Well I pulled out the bookshelf, and though I didn’t find my earrings, I found an envelope with 35 dollars in it. Not a large sum, but it was so fun! I never lose money (Or at least, I don’t think I do…oh man, but how would I ever know??? Its like not remembering there was something you forgot, because how could you remember? You forgot! Gah!), so it was fun to find it. The earrings were in my pewter box.

-Movies I’ve watched recently: ‘Ghost World’, ’28 Days later’, ‘The Big Labousky’, ‘Emma’, ‘Vertigo’, ‘The Shawshank Redemption’, ‘Finding Neverland’, and ‘The Aviator’. The last two were the only ones I hadn’t seen before, but they’re all so amazingly good. I don’t know why I wanted to post that…

-An update on work- I still hate it.

-My birthday is in lets see...like, 123…6…89…um…14 days. Dude.

More happenings to come.

I get to sleep in tomorrow. And I have no life.

When was the last time I said hello? Tuesday? Hmmm, let me give you the ‘action packed’ highlights from my last few days.

-We gave out our Valentine gifts finally, Mom had my name, how quaint (Whats with that tone???). She got me a book and ‘Emma’. I must admit, I adore that movie. I truly do. The girls and I finally watched it tonight, yes, I truly do love it. And though its an adaptation of a Jane Austen novel, and homeschool girls are prone to liking her work…I must admit, I too like this. There, I said it. HA.

-The ballet on Wednesday was fantastic, Mom and I couldn’t have enjoyed ourselves more that day. Lunch was fun, shopping went well, and we talked until Mom dropped me off in Iowa City.

-I went to class with Seth on Wednesday night, as planned (I had to skip dance class though, oh well.). I’m not exactly sure the title of the class, but the main subject is Tolkien and his works apparently. Anyways, it was a lot of fun. Seth’s professor Tom is an absolute riot, he was so entertaining, and freaking brilliant. Yes, I must admit, going to a ‘real’ college class has sort of given me a bit of hope for my next couple of years. Well, maybe ‘Has given me a desire to actually live out’ the next couple of years is more correct. I actually have a couple new ideas for majors and what not, but I plan on keeping those quiet for the time being (Remember what happened when I first mentioned them Seth? Mmm?). Ha.

-Lets see Thursday, um, boring, work, blah. I did get to take off early to do a little shopping, which was nice. Oh, and I’d ordered these jeans from the Gap and they finally came, sweeeeet. “Dear God, thank you for making the Gap.” Ha ha okay enough. But yeah, my legs and butt still sucks but these jeans are really great. Um, yeah.

-Lets see today…..WORK…dash it all to heck…then home, cleaned the house, watched ‘Emma’ with the girls, worked out, showered, cleaned my room for like 20 minutes while I did some Crest White Strips, played ‘Ink Blot’ with Nile, and here I am.

AND IT IS FRIDAY NIGHT! YES! NO WORK TOMORROW!

I’m happy about that. So happy. Like, I can sleep in. Wow. I can’t wait.

Oh, um I don’t know if the Greenday thing is going to work out. Blah, Laura and I passed on going with these McKnight girls, but I still want to go. I just don’t want to go with them.

AND I MIGHT NEVER GET ANOTER CHANCE TO SEE BILLY JOE! OH WHY DOESN’T SOMEBODY JUST SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD???

Its Seth’s birthday today, he’s 22. I got a fortune cookie exactly 365 days ago today. It read: “Either you or someone close to you will be married within a year.”

Well, I’m not hitched, and I didn’t expect to be. Honestly, all the hope was riding on Seth, but hes not hitched either. I went to a lot of weddings last year, but nobody was THAT close to me, besides John Huffy and Emily Morris…they got married in December…but that doesn’t count.

So basically I kept this stupid fortune for no reason.

I’m suing.

I don’t know who I go about suing, Buddha, God, The Fates, Hitler…but I’m suing someone.

Happy Valentines Day, late.

Yesterday was Valentines Day. It was fairly uneventful. Eddie Vedder did not show up at work with 5 dozen roses and diamond earrings for me, and he did not take me away from my wretched paper prison. So that sucked.

BUT, I did receive a few Valentines in the mail, and I’d like to give a shout out to Beccasis for sending brother and I super adorable Valentines and cookies (We got them today.).

She seriously is the sweetest girl, we *heart* you Becca.

So yes, other then a few Valentines VIA mail, stuck under door (Thanks Nile!), or PM (Hi Matt, *wink*), it was fairly blahzay.

Today, was fairly blahzay as well. Work, all that crap. I did get to take off for a couple of hours mid morning, to go down to Dawn’s and buy some beads with Mum while Seth was at class. That was okay, but then I had to come back to work. Uggggg. I’m starting to just detach when I’m there though, um, with my brain and soul or something, so the time is going by a little faster. Oh whatever I don’t even care enough to go into it.

Two things I DO care about though, are as follows: I got my ring cleaned, and now my sweet little diamonds are shining again. I also discovered the best tea on the freaking planet. Its this herbal stuff, ‘Black Cheery Berry’ and oh sweet lord…thank you.

Yup.

Tomorrow though, looks like its going to be Tre Fabulous. Mom and I are taking off for Iowa City, where we shall shop, do lunch, and see a Russian Ballet that looks FANTASTIC. Then off to Davenport to ‘J Jill’!!! Which is like, my favorite store ever. I’m hoping to pick up some spring clothes, but also hoping to come home with a small amount of my funds left, at least. Luckily the parental units gave us our clothing allowance for the last…um, four months I think, so that’s good.

After the J Jill outing, I plan on meeting Seth in Iowa City and accompanying him to one of his classes, a Tolkien’ I guess.

Oh, Cassidy asked me if I wanted to go to the Greenday concert in May with her. Heh, can we say…awesome? I hope it works out.

Well guys, this is late, but I love you. Happy Valentines day.

Dear Eddie,

Dear Eddie Vedder,

You grew up without me, how could you? You're old now, and have already lived out so much of your life, and here I am, barely 18 and and hopelessly in love with you. You made beautiful music, you were a beautiful human being, and I would have loved you. But you had to be born at the wrong time. Thanks for nothing.

Love,
Camille

_

Ha ha, seriously kids...I'll be alright. That Eddie though, wow. yes. wow.

Okay, yeah. Lets see, today...caught up on some things around the house, went shopping in CR with the girls, came home and watched 'About a boy' and most of 'Big Fish' until Chelsea called and talked for 2 and a half hours.

And I have to go to work tomorrow, and I have spanish class...ugggg. Good news though, Dad had a great interview with this chick the other day, so it looks like...

I MIGHT GET TO QUIT! There is a God. Keep your fingers crossed kids, keep your fingers crossed.

P.S. Matt, remember your promise!

How very curious...

Camille, your subconscious mind is driven most by Curiosity

You are full of questions about life, people, and your own potential. You spend more time than others imagining the possibilities for your life — and you're open to things others are too afraid to consider.

You have an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself and the world. You also have a rebellious streak that shows up when you feel unable to truly influence the world or circumstances around you. Your appetite for novel experiences also shows an openness others don't have, but wish they did.

Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.

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The above test was taken from Peter Samovars blog.

I...

...found my keys.

And I need to get into shape.

Too many classics

…I’d rather live in his world, then live without him, in mine…

When I feel like that, I’ll know I’m in love.

I’ve got to stop listening to the ‘classics’ station at work.

Work. That’s where I’ve been spending a lot of time, and I guess I’m sick of it…but I can’t change anything right now. Its going better, I’m amazed at how much I’ve learned, but I still hate it.

I lost my keys, and its driving (Ha! Driving, irony.) me insane. I have no idea where they could be…uggg. I HATE it when I don’t know where my keys are. I love my keys. Tonight I’m going to go through every inch of my room. Dump out all my bags, look under my bed…everything. They’re no at the office and they’re not in any of our vehicles… so they just HAVE to be somewhere in the house.

Dance was really fun last night, there were only six of us there because of weather and sickness. It was nice and laid back, and we got to work on this new part of our hip hop/jazz number that’s been giving us some guff…the timing was wicked hard. We’re split up in three groups, and each have three sections at a different beat…and I’m in group one…yeah it was hard, but its good now.

I have less then a month left until I am no longer a child. It’s too weird.

Dear Wendy,

I took the girls to 'Finding Neverland' tonight. I didn't know what to excpect really...but I loved it. Such a beautiful movie...and sweet tears were shed because of it.

Thank you Peter Pan.

Oo lah lah lah

Dear Laura,

Please stop liking Charlie. I can see no good coming out of this. He’s 18 and will be leaving this summer, I just…

…oh bah do what you want. Don’t listen to me, I know nothing.

Dear Nowhereman,

I worked yesterday, again. I know this , I know…that I DO NOT want to work in an office when I am older. Well, at least not the sort of work I’ve been doing. I hate paper. I hate phones. I hate checks. I HATE numbers. I hate coffee. I hate hate hate hate hate it.

It really hit me last night. As I sat on the kitchen floor talking to Mom, who was chopping some lettuce, I realized how much I hate this job. I started crying of course, man I hate my emotions…

…the evening was fine before then. The girls and I were home alone so we goofed off and went out for Chinese. We were going to see a movie, but we decided against it.

So we just sat and talked for like three hours. Eating Chinese food…drinking tea…t’was good. We realized it was time to go when I was setting the check holder thingy down and knocked over my glass of water. The girls and I just started at it, started laughing, and I said “I think its time to go.” I got a “Yup.” In unison from the girls, and that was it.

Ha, it was fun before my little break down in the kitchen I guess. But hey, its me kids, I think we’ll be fine.

Oh….I have to say this though…its getting warm here. The snow is melting.

That makes me happy.

Dear Enid,

Dear Enid,

I never understood what you did to Seymour, but I watched Ghost World again this morning while I went through my paperwork, and I don’t think you totally ruined his life.

It never would have worked out with that other chick anyways, and even though the last time we see him he’s leaving a therapist with his mother…

…I think he would of thought the ending was worth it.

Maybe you’ll come back, maybe you’ll see him again…maybe not. I honestly don’t know which would be better. I am honestly glad I gave your story another try, I wasn't nearly as disturbed this time. I hope that's a good thing and not a bad.

Tell me what it was like to disappear though, I’ve always wanted to try that.

Love, Camille

Dear Sand Man,

I've never liked you.

Wow, when was the last time I wrote? Friday? What’s the scoop on my life since then?

-The boys did well at their gymnastics meet on Saturday.

-We skipped church once again on Sunday, because we were so burned out from said meet.

-I’ve been working at Dad’s like a lot.

-I’m tired.

-I taught the Spanish class on Monday because Gail couldn’t be there. It went, well. It’s not like I even covered a ton of material, I just had to make sure that the two classes that were merging for the day worked together. It was really fun actually…I like making things run smooth, and helping people have fun. It was good.

-Work.

-A little more work.

-Exercise.

-Art projects.

Yeah, busy, but nothing too sensational. Today however, was very interesting. I had today off, and Mom, the sisters, and I headed to Iowa City for a bit of fun. We had tickets to see this dance troupe from New York, and so that’s how we started off the day. The troupe was AMAZING, I totally loved the style. African roots, but with a modern lyrical style as well…mmm…too good. One problem though, was that I stumbled and fell as we were entering out seats, heh, so that was weird…but besides a twisted ankle and slightly hurt pride, all was well. Laughs were had, and the real show started with no mishaps.

Then we went to lunch, which was so much fun. I don’t know why…we just laughed the whole time. Come to think of it we laughed and talked during pretty much all of our little excursion today.

Then we did some shopping and headed for home. We picked up the kids at Fellers, and lets just say there were a few problems. I really don’t want to go into it right now, but yes. Lets just say that once again, I’ve come to the conclusion (Can you do that more then once?) that friends are completely over-rated. And as far as trusting them goes…well…you have to trust them to some degree, but I think its best to be ready for anything.

I don’t know kids, but I think families are where its at. *SNAP*

This brings us to fall number duex. Mom and I were walking up Dad’s office sidewalk, and I don’t know what happened, but pretty soon I’m on my knees for the second time today, and in serious pain. I sit back and see that my favorite jeans now have a whole and are covered in blood on my right knee. I’m sorry kids, but I started to cry, and then Mom started asking me if I was okay, and got all worried, and then she saw my bracelet.

I was also wearing my favorite glass bracelet, and there it was on the sidewalk broken. Mom picked up the pieces, I might be able to fix it, and we went inside. I sat in Dad’s office and cried and examined my knee. There’s a lot of skin missing now, and it stings, but I’ll be okay.

Just to top it off though, I fell at dance class tonight too. There’s Camille, the frumpy one front and center, and now on the floor.

Oh well…three times the charm I guess.